Right now a question surged in my mind, "Why do you do it?"
"Why do you follow Jesus?"
"So people can see you?"
"So you can say you're the holiest?"
Not knowing where this question came from, I'm glad you (whoever) asked.
I follow Him because He is worthy of my life laid down before Him. He's worthy of more, but my life is everything I can give Him so I'll give it to Him gladly.
I follow Him because I want to. I want my life to be His and for Him to be my leader and my reason.
I follow Him because I want to know Him more. I need to know Him more.
I follow Him because I thirst for everything He is. I need Him.
I follow Him because I find joy in praising His name.
I follow Him because He is the only true God and He has made Himself known to me (and the rest of us).
I follow Him because He quickened my heart. He drew me to Him and I am eternally grateful for His hand upon my life.
I follow Him because He said, "I love you," before I ever set eyes on Him.
I follow Him because I love him.
I LOVE HIM.
He has saved my perishing soul and words nor tears nor mighty act I could ever do could ever be enough to thank Him.
All I can do is say, "Take me."
All I can do is surrender.
All I can do is bow down before His holy and mighty name.
Jesus.
Jesus.
Jesus.
My heart cries out for You and You alone.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Be Thankful & Watch Your Mouth
Point 1: Today is a day of being thankful. So I will. If I repeat myself, oh well.
Thank you for my life, my mom and dad, my sister and her husband, because I can see, because I can sing, because I have food to eat, because You have us a house to live in, because You are with me, because You love me, because I'm in college, because You gave me a scholarship, for Annie & the Gatlins, for Echo, for Erik, for Lindsay, for Kelsie, for Frankie, for Jessica, for everything I've been through because You've carried me here, for hearing my cries, for the kiddos at work because I love them, for all my coworker [Lord show me how to love like You loved and speak of You, Jesus, more than anything else], for Norma, for Lisa and her family, for Morgan & Reagan, for Consuelo, for Kimmi, thank you for having stepped down from your throne to become human and die a horrible death [praise Your name You are risen!] thank you for the job you've given me, for this car, for the ability to take my parents out to eat, for being able to give them a hug and a good night kiss, for the clothing that you've given me, for Your mighty Word that lights my path...
Point 2: Watch what you say because you can never take it back once it leaves your mouth.
I want to speak more of Jesus to my coworkers. I want to talk about "me" less to my coworker and talk about Him and how He is everything to me and how He is all I live for. He is the only way, the only truth, and the only life. When I try to be outstanding (literally) I should think what I should say... I just think that being reserved includes learning how to be self-controlled. You choose your words wisely and if you're unsure, you wait to way anything. Still, I want to be wise in speaking when it's time to speak and hush when it's time to say nothing. So Lord, help me today as I go to work and school to be set apart for You. You put me on this earth for a reason so I know I am not supposed to be secluded from people at work [or school], keep me there to show YOU. But I am nothing without You so please help me be more like You.
Love,
Katy
Thank you for my life, my mom and dad, my sister and her husband, because I can see, because I can sing, because I have food to eat, because You have us a house to live in, because You are with me, because You love me, because I'm in college, because You gave me a scholarship, for Annie & the Gatlins, for Echo, for Erik, for Lindsay, for Kelsie, for Frankie, for Jessica, for everything I've been through because You've carried me here, for hearing my cries, for the kiddos at work because I love them, for all my coworker [Lord show me how to love like You loved and speak of You, Jesus, more than anything else], for Norma, for Lisa and her family, for Morgan & Reagan, for Consuelo, for Kimmi, thank you for having stepped down from your throne to become human and die a horrible death [praise Your name You are risen!] thank you for the job you've given me, for this car, for the ability to take my parents out to eat, for being able to give them a hug and a good night kiss, for the clothing that you've given me, for Your mighty Word that lights my path...
Point 2: Watch what you say because you can never take it back once it leaves your mouth.
I want to speak more of Jesus to my coworkers. I want to talk about "me" less to my coworker and talk about Him and how He is everything to me and how He is all I live for. He is the only way, the only truth, and the only life. When I try to be outstanding (literally) I should think what I should say... I just think that being reserved includes learning how to be self-controlled. You choose your words wisely and if you're unsure, you wait to way anything. Still, I want to be wise in speaking when it's time to speak and hush when it's time to say nothing. So Lord, help me today as I go to work and school to be set apart for You. You put me on this earth for a reason so I know I am not supposed to be secluded from people at work [or school], keep me there to show YOU. But I am nothing without You so please help me be more like You.
Love,
Katy
Sunday, October 9, 2011
my Warrior King
Recently the Lord has put the phrase "Warrior King" in my mind to describe Him.
He IS a Warrior King, the Commander of armies!
Every time I prayed, this phrase, this description of my King came up. A characteristic that I seemed to have forgotten, so I was grateful to have been reminded.
I was led to read and reread Psalm 144 that begins: "Praise the Lord, my Rock, who trains me for war, who trains me for battle," which reminded me of an attitude that I should have. Other versions say, "Praise the Lord, my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle," and I know that the psalmist knew a bit about what war was like for him to be as specific as "hands" and "fingers." He knew how much his hands and fingers were of good use when in battle. This gave me a new perspective on what the life of a Christian looks like, not boring, not just merely "waiting" for the Lord's direction but trusting the Lord and having faith that God is with me already. He has sent me out.
Recently we just had Pure Rebellion and the Lord reminded me of how our battle is spiritual and how He is the one leading us forth.
He also led me to start reading Joshua. God tells him, "Hey, I am putting you in charge of leading my people to the promise land. Moses is dead and I'm assigning you to take the lead. Be strong, be brave, don't fear because I am with you." Man, talk about being put on the spot. But Joshua goes for it! Because God is with him. So I am in the seventh chapter now and somebody (i.e. Achan) is about to do what the Lord said not to do.
But the purpose of my post: My identity is in Christ, my Warrior King.
He IS a Warrior King, the Commander of armies!
Every time I prayed, this phrase, this description of my King came up. A characteristic that I seemed to have forgotten, so I was grateful to have been reminded.
I was led to read and reread Psalm 144 that begins: "Praise the Lord, my Rock, who trains me for war, who trains me for battle," which reminded me of an attitude that I should have. Other versions say, "Praise the Lord, my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle," and I know that the psalmist knew a bit about what war was like for him to be as specific as "hands" and "fingers." He knew how much his hands and fingers were of good use when in battle. This gave me a new perspective on what the life of a Christian looks like, not boring, not just merely "waiting" for the Lord's direction but trusting the Lord and having faith that God is with me already. He has sent me out.
Recently we just had Pure Rebellion and the Lord reminded me of how our battle is spiritual and how He is the one leading us forth.
He also led me to start reading Joshua. God tells him, "Hey, I am putting you in charge of leading my people to the promise land. Moses is dead and I'm assigning you to take the lead. Be strong, be brave, don't fear because I am with you." Man, talk about being put on the spot. But Joshua goes for it! Because God is with him. So I am in the seventh chapter now and somebody (i.e. Achan) is about to do what the Lord said not to do.
But the purpose of my post: My identity is in Christ, my Warrior King.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
NOT what I expected
So lately I've found it so soothing to write (or in this case type) things up.
Today I was super bummed when I saw a test grade that I got for an exam that I totally studied and re-studied for. I felt sad, frustrated, and discouraged.
Yes I know! "It's only a test."
But I guess I was expecting more... way deep down inside ha... cuz I was totally believing that I was going to get a bad grade. Which I didn't... I just thought I'd get better.
But the only thing I can do is move on right?
People in class def did NOT want to move on today ha ha. They were actually arguing with the prof to make it look like HER test were in the wrong... when more than half the class didn't keep up with the readings... I digress.
So the lesson? Move along :)
Today I was super bummed when I saw a test grade that I got for an exam that I totally studied and re-studied for. I felt sad, frustrated, and discouraged.
Yes I know! "It's only a test."
But I guess I was expecting more... way deep down inside ha... cuz I was totally believing that I was going to get a bad grade. Which I didn't... I just thought I'd get better.
But the only thing I can do is move on right?
People in class def did NOT want to move on today ha ha. They were actually arguing with the prof to make it look like HER test were in the wrong... when more than half the class didn't keep up with the readings... I digress.
So the lesson? Move along :)
Monday, October 3, 2011
Fortunately Unfortunate
Today my dad had a lot of unfortunate things happen to him.
Couldn't get work done at work when he has deadlines because even if he doesn't like it he's a people magnet and everyone comes into his office to talk to him... (not so sure that's unfortunate).
Was trying to be nice to his superior and received an "F you" in return.
Has exercise in the morn and realized he packed all his exercise gear away to get shipped out.
Drove all the way to work (mom, I and the pups went along with him) to see if he had some gear stashed away in his locker and was tempted to steal. He even thought up what he would say to us (to make it seem it was his and he found it).
Yet, he didn't steal.
He didn't lie.
You wanna know what he did?
He laughed.
In fact, right now, him and my mom are singing. They're singing to the Lord... I can hear it all the way up to my room.
My dad once asked me, "Katherine, what's the difference between a bad day and a good day?"
I said, "Your attitude."
Couldn't get work done at work when he has deadlines because even if he doesn't like it he's a people magnet and everyone comes into his office to talk to him... (not so sure that's unfortunate).
Was trying to be nice to his superior and received an "F you" in return.
Has exercise in the morn and realized he packed all his exercise gear away to get shipped out.
Drove all the way to work (mom, I and the pups went along with him) to see if he had some gear stashed away in his locker and was tempted to steal. He even thought up what he would say to us (to make it seem it was his and he found it).
Yet, he didn't steal.
He didn't lie.
You wanna know what he did?
He laughed.
In fact, right now, him and my mom are singing. They're singing to the Lord... I can hear it all the way up to my room.
My dad once asked me, "Katherine, what's the difference between a bad day and a good day?"
I said, "Your attitude."
He's with me
I'm caught up on my school work! Well, more than before :) It feels so good :)
I have decided to do my best; to sprint all the way to the end.
Have you ever tried that? Sprinting all the way to the end?
I just ran a 5k last Saturday and threw up after I crossed the finish line, because I pushed myself too hard when I shouldn't have.
Even though, I felt great once I finished the race. :)
I'm going to graduate in about 10 weeks. I'm ecstatic!
I know a new season is approaching and I'm just praying that the Lord draws me ever nearer to Him! There are so many things that this world offers, so many options to choose from, that we sometimes forget that God is all we need.
I'm excited about what's to come, & I'm most reassured when Jesus reminds me He's with me.
I have decided to do my best; to sprint all the way to the end.
Have you ever tried that? Sprinting all the way to the end?
I just ran a 5k last Saturday and threw up after I crossed the finish line, because I pushed myself too hard when I shouldn't have.
Even though, I felt great once I finished the race. :)
I'm going to graduate in about 10 weeks. I'm ecstatic!
I know a new season is approaching and I'm just praying that the Lord draws me ever nearer to Him! There are so many things that this world offers, so many options to choose from, that we sometimes forget that God is all we need.
I'm excited about what's to come, & I'm most reassured when Jesus reminds me He's with me.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Why?
Have you ever taken the time to write a list of "Why?" you wanted to do something? Like when you're about to make a big decision...
Sometimes we find that our reason is "Just because." You can't think of any more reasons. And when in some cases that might be super cute (i.e. getting married), there are times when "Just because" doesn't cut it. And I am in such a setting where I can list out many reasons of "Why?"
Not to divulge, the Lord knows my innermost feelings and desires. My closest friends know why too.
But I feel that if I don't write these reasons "why" down, I might be convinced otherwise.
Yeah this all might sound confusing but I know what I speak of... and the fact that God knows gives me peace. He knows. If He knows, that's enough.
Oh and P.S. He knows EVERYTHING :)
Sometimes we find that our reason is "Just because." You can't think of any more reasons. And when in some cases that might be super cute (i.e. getting married), there are times when "Just because" doesn't cut it. And I am in such a setting where I can list out many reasons of "Why?"
Not to divulge, the Lord knows my innermost feelings and desires. My closest friends know why too.
But I feel that if I don't write these reasons "why" down, I might be convinced otherwise.
Yeah this all might sound confusing but I know what I speak of... and the fact that God knows gives me peace. He knows. If He knows, that's enough.
Oh and P.S. He knows EVERYTHING :)
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