Sigh

Yes, today is a new day.

It feels fresh, untouched until now.

I can breath easier & think much clearer.

Think back & learn from my mistakes... not regretting them, but learning & moving on.

Think forward & smile. Hold my head up high.

Don't fret because God has it all lined up. Just go... TRUST. FOLLOW & obey.

And everything'll be alright.

My Farewellcome

I feel... like change in my life is also creating sadness.

I've been so nostalgic these past few days just thinking about leaving my current job where I've been for about 2 years. Even though it's been hard there, I've also had the sweetest times with my kids... & even my coworkers. Thinking about it makes me want to cry!
...and I just shake my head while I stare at some wall becoming blurred with my tears because I never ever imagined I would feel this way. In a way, I thought I would be completely elated, with no sadness whatsoever, to leave there... but I was naive.
I used to say, "Welcome change!! I'm ready for it! Bring it on!" Oh man... I was on the mountain top when I said that. Change is good though, don't get me wrong. But sometimes it just simply hurts. Like it's inevitably coming, or already there, and you bid for it to go back where it came from because you don't want to let go of certain things or certain people.

My new job is fabulous and it is such a huge door being opened by my God... thank you Lord... yet I know He sees my sadness for moving on. I am excited for this new opportunity but looking back, at the 2 years at my other job... I have conclusively become attached to people... more than I expected, more than I ever wanted, more than I had planned. And thinking about it, I realize life has always been like that... and it will always be like that. Saying, "Farewell," to seasons of your life and saying, "Welcome," to the next.

You might compare me to the psalmist when in one chapter he was incredibly and excitingly jumping for joy praising the Lord and in the next chapter he was asking the Lord to come and save him, almost depressed... still, the psalmist always found his way back to the sovereignty of the Lord... & I find myself doing the same.

Praise Him

Praise the Lord!
I will thank the Lord with all my heart...
How amazing are the deeds of the Lord!
All who delight in Him should ponder them.
Everything He does reveals His glory and majesty.
His righteousness never fails.
He causes us to remember His wonderful works.
How gracious and merciful is our Lord!
...All He does is just and good,
and all his commandments are trustworthy.
They are forever true,
to be obeyed faithfully and with integrity.
He has paid a full ransom for His people.
He has guaranteed His covenant with them forever.
What a holy, awe-inspiring name He has!
Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true wisdom.
All who obey His commandments will grow in wisdom.
Praise Him forever!
Psalm 111


THAT seemed appropriate.
I am presently overflowing with thankfulness.

Remember my last post?

I got the job. :D

Such perfection within and throughout this short & swift process of this new job, it's nothing short of a miracle:
1. I didn't do any seeking; I was sought out (for the job)... even highly recommended twice.
2. Even with my hesitation and neglect of applying for the job, it came.
3. I told Him to do all the work because, to be honest, I was comfortable where I was at (the "comfortable" where I didn't want to bother to welcome changes).
4. I thought (& still do) that I wasn't ready or meant for a job like this, working with children with autism. (Never imagined myself...)
5. Hired on the spot with an interview that was so chill, it was simply a conversation.
6. I had absolutely zero nerves from the moment I picked up the phone to call the hiring manager, through the waiting process, up to the interview, and through the interview (that's definitely a praise).
7. This job correlates with my undergrad degree & it deals with helping children, and consequently their families.

I am thrilled.

I praise the Lord my God and thank Him for every piece of this that just swiftly fell into place.
And even when I think about it, soaking it all in, I must say, "I am so undeserving."

"Sheer love," is what is whispered back.

Thank you Jesus.

'Tis in the hands of God

Today is a big day.
Things for a certain job seem to have flowed together quickly... Something I didn't expect when I said to the Lord, "Lord, just do what you will with this because otherwise I'll stay where I'm at."
For some reason, I haven't been nervous about it. & I hope my nerves remain subdued on my way to the interview today.
I opened the Word this morning & read about FAITH (Romans 5)... "Thank You Lord that hope does not disappoint." I turned the radio on & heard "I will walk by faith..."

So today the Lord does not disappoint (He never does)... & I pray that my entire being hopes & believes in His right plan. No matter the outcome.

I go forth in faith.