Motives

It's come to mind, "What if I didn't have a voice?" Literally.
"Could I still worship the Lord?"
(YES)

Such questions are a constant reminder of how much greater and grander it is to worship as a way of living; a lifestyle. Not just merely with the melodious resonating of your vocal chords or the exclamation "Praise Jesus!"
It's WAY more than that. In fact, the latter is insignificant, worthless if you're not living such a life as to please the Lord; such a life that screams "I worship You Lord!"
Actions DO speak louder than words.

I always tell the Lord, "Test me, Lord, and try me, examine my heart and mind;" (Psalm 26:2)
My motives... even for being given the opportunity to lead worship: I WANT the Lord to test me!
I think, "What if I didn't have a voice..."  and something in me saddens... and it's because of my love for singing. How I love to SING! To get the notes right and to improve on my harmonies! I get so excited about it!! Yet it would be wrong for me to love that more than I love my God... to love ANYTHING or ANYONE more than God.
I want it to be for my God! A tribute! To use my voice to unleash and release praises and melodies for HIM! Singing hymns and raising my voice for the One who saves. Yes, I often meditate and check myself on if I am becoming proud of my voice... in fact I don't like saying it's "my voice". It's His. But as soon as I am reminded of such pride I rebuke it! "Humble me. Humble me." I repeat it. I've thought and said, "Lord, if You must or if in any way I'm not using my voice in the manner You want me to please just take it away." Even if it's a glimpse of, "I own my voice," I want Him to deplete it.

In fact, I've thought of how my life would be if I weren't able to sing... now don't get me wrong: I thank Jesus Christ for this gift He's given me... but let's suppose. I like supposing such things to check myself and to see where I stand:
If I weren't able to sing, yet still had life, I could still worship Him. So that rules out that singing is worship. Singing is a way, a manner to worship the Lord in songs. But it is not WORSHIP. To say that singing is worship is to diminish the Lord's word and what He said about worship and that's a big NO-NO. Worship is bigger, much greater than that. Let's go one step further. If I couldn't move a muscle in my body, could I still worship the Lord? Yes, I could STILL worship the Lord.
Notice Psalm 150: 6, "Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord." One requirement to praise the Lord: breath.

Worship begins on the inside and proceeds to permeate your way of life.
"'But the hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father is seeking such people to worship Him. God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.'" John 4:23-24

Thinking of such possibilities or scenarios as I've mentioned above makes me even more grateful at the fact that I can use my voice for HIS glory, that I can raise my hands as a gesture of surrender to HIM, that I can clap my hands and jump and leap and yell because my whole being erupts with joy at HIS greatness and majesty and such grace and mercy HE'S had upon all... upon me. All for HIS GLORY.

So this singing facet of my life is one of many facets that I constantly examine and that we must all do. And I pray to the Lord that all the other facets and crevices of my life, my heart, be examined by His all-seeing eye! I don't even trust my own heart, "The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" therefore I run to the One who sees right into me and can correct my crookedness; where in His sight there is nothing that can be hidden. For He says, "'I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve.'"

He knows me better than I know myself.
Praise the Lord for that.