Think think think

For some reason, I have suddenly become concerned for my future.
Is it lack of trust in the Lord?
Is it that I myself don't even know what I want to do?
Maybe it's because of all the graduations happening.

I planned on graduating this year, so maybe that's why I've realized how close I am to graduating (I still have 1 more year to graduate because I picked up another major).

Questions:
What do I really want to be?
Where is it that I'll be most effective?
Would I really love working with families?
Should I intern here or there? For how long?

I'm just trying to get to know myself a little better. It seems like I don't. Weirdly enough.
Like I'm trying to figure out where I'll want to be in a year... or even more, where the Lord'll want me.
Trying to figure out ministry as well: serving with Jr. Highers or serving with another population.
I'm just not sure!!!
Is that ok to say?
I'm not sure.
All I know is that God is still God.
He is still on His throne and I want Him to have control of my life, of my uncertainties, of me.
But I want to trust.
Sometimes we have such a hard time trusting others. The thing is that this Somebody isn't just a somebody.
I believe that the more we get to know Him the more we learn to trust Him.
The more we learn of who He is, the more we realize that trusting Him is all we can do.
We'll begin to say, "Why not trust Him? There's no other way."