The Humbling Factor

I've been sick!! :D

Ha ha not something that I would usually be smiling about.
And don't get me wrong... I haven't been smiling :O
This was a very challenging "sickness" whatever it was.
It's receded now.

But have you ever been sick and had quiet time with the Lord?
Some might think that that's a given: to have quiet time with the Lord when you're sick because you're doing so horribly it's like a "must" to pray or something.
Others might think that it's not a given: just hurry up and get better. It's all about me, me, me.

But this quiet time I had was different. It wasn't a, "Oh Lord please help me get better. If You do then I'll do such and such," or "God, I don't know why I got this. What did I do wrong... please take it away" trying to figure out why in the world I'D be sick.

"I DON'T GET SICK! THIS CAN'T BE!!"

This quiet time was a humbling quiet time. One where you're so clueless to what's going on, all you can do is praise Him. You're so empty-handed that all you can do is go for more... of Him. You're so deep in the rut that all you can do is look up. It was a time of gratitude. It was a time of thinking on who God is. A time of being still and knowing that He is God.

When you get in those moments, when you take the time to really sit and consciously think about God, not some ecstatic experience or something that "takes you over", but you choose to meditate on the Lord, He will definitely meet you.

And it's amazing just to think that the God of the universe would take that step, make that decision to meet you... right where you are. The King of the universe! Meeting me! Wanting to hear me out. Wanting to speak to me! To me?!

It's even more amazing to know that this King died for me. Yet rose and lives. And rules.

It's all humbling.
He's all-humbling.

So it seems like this "sickness" helped me huh? I mean I could have gotten angry and just frustrated about this entire situation. I could have tried to find somebody to blame.
What good is that?
Rather this helped me know the Lord a bit more. A bit more of His infinite splendor and all-powerful sovereignty. A piece more of His glory, of His love.

"I pray that out of His glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have the power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:16-19