In Life or Death

It's 2012... but the Lord lives outside of time. He is not confined to it and He does not live by it. He controls it. The thought of that reminds me of His utter control yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

Last night was a blessed evening with people I love. Food, fun, laughs, catching up... I'm thankful.

For a bit I have been awaiting to read a book that I purchased for a few cents at Goodwill. It's called "My Utmost for His Highest: Updated Graduate Edition." When I saw it I remembered I had heard a ton of good things about it. It's by Oswald Chambers & I've definitely heard about him. It's a devotional for each day of the year. Each is a page and just skimming through it I was super eager to read it even before today! But I waited until January 1st to read the first entry. It talks about giving all of us to Him without reserves. One quote that stood out the most was, "I am determined to be absolutely & entirely for Him and Him alone." Just to give ourselves to Him with no reserves, no hinderances, no shyness, no shame. Each entry is also backed up with a passage from the Word.

Now that I've graduated college, I just want to have Him take control. My heart might have so many passions, desires, longings, faults, cracks, but I just know that without Him leading me I can't go on. In fact, I pray that the Lord burdens me with conviction of the need to have Him lead my every decision and my daily walk. I don't want to passively live this life but to actively engage His light within the world.

"...my earnest expectation and hope that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by death" Phil 1:20