I [don't] know

Lord, I know You can see farther than I can.
I know You know why this is happening.
But I don't.
And I know that it's best that way...
Right now I am not understanding.
I want to ask, "Help me understand please..."
Yet the thing that stops me from asking that is knowing that at least YOU understand.
Even when no one else understands what's going on, much less me, You do and that closes all my further questions.

Even with the uneasiness, You know.
I wonder how my faith is right now... being uneasy and all.
I read a saying this week, "Faith- is not believing that God can do it, but that God WILL do it."
Good refrain.
That battles with my heart though.
Or on the contrary, my heart battles with that.

Right now my heart says, "Why? How? What does this mean?" of my circumstances.
Are those the right questions to be asking?

I've always tried to live thankful, as Your Word says.
Maybe not being in the most desired circumstances, yet persevering just because... because You're still there. But does that mean not doing something? If right now I'm in an undesired circumstance, do I "go with the flow"? In other words, wait till You bring something else my way?

Honestly, I don't want to. I want to act. I want to do. I want to move.
Maybe I am moving and I'm not even noticing.

Lord, I know You can see farther than I can.

I know You know why this is happening.

But I don't.

And I know that it's best that way...

Right now I am not understanding.

I want to ask, "Help me understand please..."

Yet the thing that stops me from asking that is knowing that at least YOU understand.

Even when no one else understands what's going on, much less me, You do and that closes all my further questions.