The scope of my life through my own eyes is so minute, so finite.
I've been thinking a lot lately about my life (now that I'm so close to graduating) and no joke I'm feeling like I want more. Crazy huh? About to graduate with my bachelors and I want more.
In a way it's a little disappointing that school's ending, although it is a relief. But then I start thinking about life in its totality; not just in the now but in the later and the then. I've been in school since pre-k and became so used to that routine, to the go-to-class routine and even the peer pressure routine that now that my school days are slowing down and pretty much coming to an end (for now), I'm starting to realize that there's more to be lived. Don't get me wrong, I kind of knew that (i.e. the Bible says to set your mind on the things above), but now that my life is taking a turn, all I want to do is hold on... to my Savior.
There's a sense of emptiness in my heart, maybe because school's ending, maybe because now I realize this is for real, or maybe because I am once again reminded that this life is like a vapor as my best friend has reminded me... but I pray that God and only He be the One that fills whatever space is left within it. Maybe it's simply that I've been holding on to some things here on earth.
It's interesting because I think that God has placed some sort of void within my heart during this time because it is dire time to seek Him.
My scope is insufficient and leads me to focus on the now and doesn't reach any greatness.
But the Lord's scope is greater. The Lord's scope is bigger and better. The Lord's scope is infinite and filled with hope. The Lord's scope goes far beyond what any human mind can fathom. The Lord's scope makes me sigh as I release all my fears into His hands. The Lord's scope melts my heart and swells tears into my eyes. The Lord's scope shows me that I am His and He is mine. The Lord's scope demonstrates that my fullness is in Him. The Lord's scope tells me, "There is more. Seek me and you will find me when you seek me with all of your heart."
He's told me He has great plans for me. Plans that exceed my plans.
I respond, "Just have Your way Jesus. Now and forevermore."
Amazing! Thank you so much for sharing Katherine! This post had me feeling every emotion with you and so broken to think of the LORD's huge scope! "The Lord's scope makes me sigh as I release all my fears into His hands"... so incredibly true and beautifully put! All I have to say is a big amen! :) And I'm praying for you aton as this huge change approaches! I love how you said that you feel God's created this void and emptiness in your heart right now to seek Him more, and I know that He's working amazing things in you through that brokenness! I cannot wait to see what He does through His infinite scope and His plans for you that are exceedingly, abundantly above all that we could think or ask, just like you said! :) <3
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